Disregarded Memories

I am literally suprised when people find me attractive.

I’m just like:

then I’m like:

(Source: ohddaniellee)

allusionsofinfinity:

it’s awkward, because i’m realizing that i probably love most fictional characters more than i will ever love an actual human being in my entire life.

Third year anniversary and an almost engagement?

So it has now came and went. My third year anniversary with my boyfriend whom I adore.

Also my almost engagement apparently. I was supposed to be proposed to on our anniversary. But he told one of his friends and they discouraged him from doing it cause we are still young ( Daniel is 23 and I turn 20 in November). I was shocked.

I always thought he never really stood by the idea of marriage. I didn’t think he loved me that much to have an actual moment to want me to be his wife. For us to be together, till the end of our days alive. Together raising a family.

I adore him and I totally want that ( I have an ideal timeline and everything) but I never thought he’d want the same thing even relatively close to now.

Of course, he didn’t do it. He told me his intentions and I had to hide my supreme disappointment.

Never the less we were together the day of our anniversary (September 28th) and I tried to surprise him (successfully) and I tried to pay for it ( he didn’t let me, macho thing). We did our day of hookie and we “hung out” ‘n’ stuff :)

I love him. Very much.

He’s so wonderful to me. He’s everything to me. Sometimes I don’t appreciate him enough. He’s so kind, gentle and patient with me. He even understands my gibberish when I’ve stayed up for too long. I can’t get enough if him. Sometimes I think he’s made for me. Like when he holds me, he always holds me just right. He always knows what I’m trying to get at with certain smiles. We even finish each others sentences off too. He’s my best friend and I cannot be with out him. For any amount of time.